Life in Swaziland is complicated, yet in the same breath I
can say that life in Swaziland is simple.
There doesn’t seem to be any small talk or conversations about the
weather or who won the game last night.
Everything discussed is important, and it is usually directly linked to
life or death.
This week I learned that my mother, who has been a follower
of Jesus her whole life, now believes that Jesus has forsaken her and left her
to die alone. She has cut off all
prayer and communication with Him because he has abandoned her. She wants a gun so she can end her
life, but refuses to acknowledge that she has suicidal thoughts. Lord, please help me understand why you
are allowing this to happen.
The same day I heard about my mom I got a call from Helen
who had taken little baby Jeremiah to the Baylor Pediatric AIDS clinic. Sadly, he tested positive for HIV. Jeremiah was found at a bus stop in
Mbabane when he was only one week old and is now a month old and has been
growing and thriving … and now we know he is infected. It’s like getting a kick in the
stomach, but I will still give thanks that El Roi saw Jeremiah and send him to
us for love and care.
Life is complicated, and yet simple. Whether praying for my
mom or for all the babies at the El Roi baby home, I am reminded that my focus
is to be on HIM and Him alone. I
can’t do any more for my mom than I am doing and I can’t do any more for
Jeremiah. I have to do what I can
do and leave the rest in HIS capable hands. His ways are not our ways and His plans are not our plans –
and I try to remind myself of this every single day, or else I will go mad trying to fix things that aren't mine to fix.
Those are some of my thoughts for this week in Swaziland, but keep reading because I want to share some interesting (and terrifying) statistics from a poll take by a Swazi newspaper. I
saw originally in a blog post by Benjamin Verhulst, who is also living in Swaziland. These will give you a little different
perspective of how Swazi’s think and what we are dealing with around us.
Living in Swaziland is complicated ... and not.
Janine
